Right at the end of a very long weird dream, you appeared. You looked different, younger, but of course you did. I really do feel like you were visiting me in that dream. Im sad that it ended so soon.. you asked me how i was, i wanted to show you my engagement ring, you were getting out your glasses to give it a look and then of course like what always happens in my dreams there was a drastic scene change.. it was short and sweet but hugging you again felt so nice, even if it was just in my head. It bothers me when people say that you will always be with me, and that you will always be in my memory, because you cant put your arms around a memory.. Grandma, it still doesnt feel fully real that you arnt here on this earth with us anymore, im still kind of in shock to a degree. When the time came that we would usually be going to see you, around august 6th, i got the most uncomfortable, missing feeling deep down in my gut. I later realized exactly why.. There is nothing to sooth that feeling, at least nothing ive found yet, but that dream, that hug, made me feel at ease for a little while.
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