I feel as though my life has become somewhat tipped turned upside down. Everything is out of sorts, my o.c.d is setting in however my procrastination is overwhelming it. My house is a mess, my room is a mess I need to do laundry I hate my job. I miss my family and my dear friends who are only a couple records length of a car ride away. I feel like i need more time with my fiancé because it's all become so routine, day in and day out. Work, Netflix, sleep. And sometimes substitute netflix with days friends are over or asking us to hang out. Never any alone, cuddle up and talk for hours time anymore. I need more time to get chores done around the house that other people find simple and meaningless, where as I, take all the time in the world trying to muster up the energy to actually get up off the couch. That's another thing, energy, I feel like I could be eating so much better, but even that's hard. No time to make a decent dinner, no energy, no money. It's a vicious cycle and I'm not even a damn college student! Just your lame old drop out kid doing a menial job waiting for things to all work out.. Oh motivation, where are you hiding?