thoughts.

• "we'll see" - "ill try" im getting really sick of these words, they always lead up to disappointment these days. There is no try, there is no seeing, its simply and easy scape goat. I dont know if it is simply too much to ask to have someone be reliable for once..

• Another quick thing thats been bothering me as of lately, "who is there?" "who all is coming?" Is it just a curiosity, or am i not good enough? Last night i was worried to answer back with "just us" because there is a possibility that its not enough.

• No phone call back from lush, im guessing that means it was another deny on the job. i dont know why im surprised, im not a people person i suppose.
  

• Moms birthday this weekend, im trying my best to get as many people out to the grand for a big bash, however im getting the same old, "maybe"' i think people are becoming jaded to fun now-a-days, they dont realize that its not necessarily the surroundings that matter, its the people youre surrounded with. Eh, all i can say is that if they dont show up, im still going to have a great time with the one woman who truely never let me down, i love you mom.