Well i have officially done it guys, i have disappointed my mother. I never saw it coming, i never wanted it to happen but one simple action finally broke that line. My new tattoo isnt going to appeal to many people, i can already tell.. I now have the acronym DILLIGAF written in ink across my wrist. This acronym has a lot of meaning to me, its more than just the words within the letters it is an emotional state i often find myself in. When people walk by me in the streets and stare, when young men tell me "its not halloween anymore" when people in the hallways at school call me the "weird one" I often find myself with no actual second thought of caring what they think. I have faced my share of judgement in my life, but none of it has stomped me down, none of it has made me think twice about being the person i am, the down right weird human being that i truly AM. I feel as if dilligaf represents me fairly well, my mother however doesnt. But its like mothers to not care, or not understand because most of us dont tell every feeling we are having to our mothers. She doesnt know how often i am presented with judgement whether on my personality or my looks so therefor i dont think she understands how many times i have had to shrug it off. You have to be strong, you have to hold onto who you are as a person when you arnt like everyone else because sadly, even in this day in age, being strange is just not acceptable.
Your mother will get used to it- she has to. You're her daughter after all. You're not a minor anymore- and it's your choice. She should respect your choice, and not chastise you for it, no matter her opinion on it. I'm rather surprised to see that she's taken such offense. Ah, and if the thingy stating my username doesn't say, this is Carson; Riley, Jess, and Amy's friend in the USA. c:
ReplyDeleteThank you carson, this means the world that you would go out of your way to read my blog and reply, thank you. I hope one day she accepts it and doesn't look at it with disgust every time she sees it. It is such a positive thing to me, maybe one day she will understand. I know it's hypocritical and counter active that I'm caring what she thinks with a tattoo with dilligaf on it, but she's my mother and I will always care, always.
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